Self Doubt

Last night was one of those nights where bad thoughts come flooding in my mind, like toxic chemical poisoning my whole system. It was bringing me down. I kept pointing at all my flaws and all my failures and thinking “will I ever be enough?” It came to a point where I was fighting with my…

Nostalgia

A day is greeted with a certain longing for anything but the same. I rush to get my laptop, and scroll for movies or tv series to spend the rest of the day with. Apparently, every thing makes me sick. Even the thought of logging into my Facebook is filling me up with dread; and…

They Sliced Me Open

Exactly a week ago today I was in a hospital bed in the recovery section of St. Luke’s Medical Hospital, shivering, sleeping and staring at the digital clock on the wall in between. I was, a part from my state of grogginess, excited to see my family and my boyfriend waiting in my room. At…

Lazy Day on a Tuesday

Lazy days are like prized possession to me, they’re like the limited edition of Nike fly knits or Nutella Mint spread (yeah, I made that up but wouldn’t it be cool if they have one?) But you get my point, alright. Ever since I got work, all my weekdays are spent in the office, working…

Yssa and The City

For someone who grew up loving Gossip Girl and Sex and The City, it is not a surprise to know that she would also wish to experience walking the streets of Manhattan, New York. But if that someone can’t afford a plane ticket abroad, then BGC is a place to be. A place of luxurious…

I Cried Pearls Today

“I thought about it and realized life is short. I feel like my love will be longer than my life. So that’s why in this lifetime, my love won’t end.” I finished Legend of the Blue Sea today and I have two words: Amazing Ending. I would like to say thanks to the director, story…

So Close, But Not Quite

During Christmas, my mom would always tell me that I can never open my gifts until it’s the 25th of December. So I would spent quite some time looking at the clock every 24th checking it every now and then. I would imagine what gifts I’d receive or what items could fit into this box…

I Have The K Drama Flu

Currently, I’m on the 12th episode of Legend of the Blue Sea. I started watching that thing last night and basically wasted half of this day watching 7 episodes. This is so strange even for me. I grew up reading western novels and loving tv series such as Gossip Girl, Sex and The City, How…

Overthinking Ain’t Good

You know it’s crazy every single time I look at photos of people, especially girls that look good and I’d think ‘wow, they look absolutely gorgeous. I wish I look as good as them.’ and then I would scroll more and find out how much people admire them and like them and care for them….

Future “mom” Identity

Seriously, as early as now I’m already planning out how I’d be as a mom in the future. And typically, we all want a mom who wears aprons, bakes apple pies, cleans the house, arranges the bouquets on top of every table, makes sure every clothe is washed and smells fabulous, carries the baby around…

Little Things

Small choices, small details, small decisions… All of them may go unnoticed but for some reasons, for me, I guess, these little things actually matter and they do make big differences. We don’t realize this because we often focus on the bigger things: the final exams, the proposal, the birthday celebrations. And let’s admit it,…

What’s In Your Schedule?

In general, people typically wake up in the morning, try to be amazing for the whole day, travel, eat and do their chores until they hit the hay. A bit monotonous if you ask me, but this is how the schedule of a normal person works. And usually, people like these tend to set goals…